Life has been a bit hectic lately. There's a lot going on and little time, if any, to take it all in. Yesterday I poured my heart and my tears out to my fiance, who was very understanding and supportive. But I can't help feeling like God is a bit absent in all this. I'm loaded to the brim with schoolwork, and my work is one of the most mundane (and low-paying) jobs I've ever had, which is saying something. Looking for a new job has made me realize my last interview was over two years ago; my hope wanes. I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to planning my wedding, and relationships are suffering, to say the least. With my my schedule so full, I feel quite empty.
It's difficult to find time for God when the hours in the day seem so short, and I'm sure this will only grow increasingly difficult as life goes on. So, here and now, I choose Him. I will set aside the time in each and every day to dedicate my life to God, again and again. I will blow off assignments and settle for B's and C's if I need to. It may not be the wisest choice academically, but it's what needs to be done. Because this world is too crazy for me to be without Him, and honestly I can't do it alone. This is my priority.
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